it has been a long long time i didnt landed at my beloved private land. I realized this is always how I started my blog entry. Guess, I need to spend some time here to share a lil bit of my life with Mr. Blogger!
Life is not easy now! I gained something and I lost something but what I lost is more than what I gained.
Every day I feel reluctant to go to work. As though Denise's time has once again happened again! I hate to come to work because it does not make me smile anymore! It makes me lost my motivation, confidence as well as passion!
I love my job, I love my colleagues and I love the environment here but not my boss! He is.. really.. INCREDIBLE! He has so many things in mind. Today he wants me to do this and tomorrow he wants me to do that! For once or twice, I can take it but as time goes by, this is really driving me nuts! All I had in my mind is - CAN YOU PLEASE MADE UP YOUR MIND BEFORE YOU TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I DO? Damn!
I used to have a bunch of happy peeps here but now it's getting lesser and lesser. I guess it's all because of him. But obviously he doesnt think that way! He always think we are not performing, we are not ambitious enough & bla bla bla! I was thinking, please stop barking and think before he said all these. Look and understand the job scope before he starts saying all these.. I super wooper BEH TAHAN him lor!!!
I never had depression coming to work, now I do! Why? HIM LA! Every morning, in order for me to be NOT-SO-DEPRESS, I have to go swim at least for 15min! This is the only thing that makes me HAPPY! (I sound so pathetic now)
I know life is always like a roller coaster! I have experienced something worst than this so I know I can pass it through.. is just that when you're in hell, its really torturing!
Everyday I tried to gather as many positive energies as possible for me to keep going on! Without these, I bet I had already typed and thrown the resignation letter into my boss' face!
There is a chinese proverb saying 吃得苦中苦，方为人上人！I truly understand what does it mean but how long it takes for breaking dawn?! How long should I live under this dark side of the world? *burst out with tears*..
Oh Lord, please give me the strength to keep going on and fight with all the evil parties! I know I am only me but I have YOU in my heart! I know with you, I can pass through all these *aza aza fighting*
JIA YOU LA MISSBUNNIE! No more babybunny jor.. so need to learn to be tough and strong (i'm going crazy now cos doing such pat talk to myself! LOL)
Oh bloggie, I love you! I feel much better now.. Although I'm not sure how long can this happiness last but I appreciate this even it only last for a minute! :)
Gonna go back to my reality!
TGIF!!
Love,
Missbunnie
