Staying Alive.

As mentioned at my previous blog, my day was suck to the max. Basically I'm not into anything and I started to have phobia. I scared of FB, People, & baby's new toy because they are the causes of making my day like shit.

However, after "attended" baby Lee's lecture class, i felt relieved and realized how dumb was I to actually have such thoughts. But my mood was still down although I understand the rational behind. So baby Lee decided to bring me to church, a place that makes me feel secured.

When we arrived at church, I felt so peaceful. When I knee in front of the alter and prayed, my heart stops for a second. My tears flow down silently. When I looked at the statue of Jesus, I felt so secured and also sinful at the same time. I felt dumb too for being upset over some unnecessary things.

After praying inside the church, we went to light up the candles. I wish all what I prayed, Jesus will answered them one by one

The 6burning candles - I wish dramas end!

St John Church

Me in front of one of the church's entrance

Random pic. The mother nature is so great isn't it?!

After church, baby Lee brought me to Pavilion to shop. Yes, shopping is a way to release tensions. But once in awhile, I still recall all those unhappy things. The question of "Why is all these shits keep happening on me & etc" cant stop appearing in my mind :(

I'm just a human being, I do make mistakes but at the same time, I do try my best to be a better person. But unfortunately, the good deeds that you had done, so far people cannot recall and the bad ones, they will never forget!


Again, went to Yo! Sushi for dinner. Nothing special. But this round, it meant something to me. Because I know someone was trying very hard to put the smile back on me :)

Baby's favorite

My fav- Baby Octopus

Baby Lee enjoying his cawanmushi

I love this curry katsu chicken

So basically, after dinner, we went back home. The night was extraordinary silent cos I wasn't in the mood to talk about anything.

Some random pictures we took when we were on our way to church :)

Baby's Secondary School

I hate the angel! Feel like smashing it into a thousand pieces!!!

Well, in this incident, I've seen so much and realized so much. I knew who am I and where I stand. I know who really does care about me as ALLYSSA and who does not. Thank God for giving me this opportunity to see things around me clearly because all this while, I'm some sort of being blindfolded.

I shall learn from my lesson and I pray that this kind of drama will not happen again. I've dumped all the "rubbish" in the recycle bin and empty it.

That's all for now. Hoping tomorrow will be better than today!

Signing off