Babies

The other day, when I was in the office.. The girls were chatting about babies because Esther was persuading Mae to get another baby boy/girl to accompany Dong Yuan. Then we started to discuss the baby topic in deep..

Esther loves babies and so do the rest of us. I love babies too. But having a own child of mine, if I can choose, I choose not to. Part of the reason is because I AM SCARE PAIN! As described by the mothers out there, the labor pain is the most painful pain ever *shivering*.. In addition, your vagina will tear, you cannot pee as usual, you can't shower for a month, you will have stitches on your *ehem*... and so on! It's scary man!! I don't think so I can go through such pain because my pain tolerance consider quite low =.=

In addition, I think bringing a baby to this world means bringing he/she to a living hell. Maybe I'm too negative now but what I am saying is what I am feeling. When we flip through the newspaper every single day, we saw all sorts of crimes! I don't think so bringing such a lovely human being to this world is bring hope, love and happiness to he/she because I believe this little angel feels more happier with God, isn't it?!

This world that we are living now is UGLY! People are doing things only for their own benefits and they do not concern about how other feels. I worried, if I have a baby one day, will my baby get bullied by others or will my baby a big bully?! In addition, there are so many things to worry when a baby is born.

I love babies. I really really do. But I really could not bear to see this cute little angel from Heaven came to earth to be a normal human being and go through all the pain on earth. I am going through all these pains; Jealousy, hatred, greed, selfishness and etc. I want to be a better person but it is always easy to say but hard to do.

I do not know whether will the thought of mine be changed when I grow older. But until now, I do not want to have a child of mine although I know he/she will be the best person in my life.

Suddenly I feel I am full with negative energy now! GRRRHHH!! Work drives me crazy and the people there drives me nuts especially the brainless + ball-less account guy. He is only 22years old, one year younger than me but he is the most evil person that I've ever met so far. He is the one who made me feel that my decision of not having a baby in the future is a right decision because he had proven to me how evil and ugly a human being can be.

I will update something happier soon! I promise!!

This week is a bad week for me so forgive my negative energy ya! =P

I love you all. I really do!! Thanks for all the support!!

Love,
Missbunnie