Happy CNY eve

Something has been bothering me really bad lately.. Something that is beyond my control! I got really frustrated when such problem occurred cos there's no absolute cure for it. Basically I can't do anything but to pray. Only God has the ability to solve this problem.

So far only two person who are very close to me knew what is bothering me so badly. Missbunnie always portrait as a very tough, fierce and not so easy girl, in fact.. when this particular thing happened, I became very fragile. One touch can breaks me easily, not exaggerating but its truth.

I had no way to spill my beans so in the end, I've decided to spill it to someone who by right should not know about this case because I do not wanna get him involved and made him feel bad and sad. However, I still told him, which is my man about my problem as he is the person who is nearest to me and I have to share with him because I thought he should knew it.

At first, when I started to share with him.. he did not really get it. He thought I was being emo and throwing tantrum to him. Throughout our conversation, he gets frustrated, upset, down, angry and pissed off.. and me, of course I felt even worst. I thought he would not understand. Tears were rolling down my cheeks, heartbroken. Not his fault I knew and I was not blaming him because I do understand why he can't understand as me, myself also do not understand.

My mood was real bad real bad. I was very sad and could not even force out a smile. Yes, it is that bad. This seldom happen to me because I'm very forgetful, I forget things very easily and even if I was extremely upset at this moment, the next second, after I blew everything out, I will be absolutely fine. But in this case, my fish memory just doesn't work! WHY!? Why my fish memory just got malfunctioned when I needed it the most?!

If people who knew me really well can tell I'm not doing great. Even food can't cheer me up. However, a few smses from him this morning had made me felt much better. Although the problem is still there, unsolved yet.. but from it, I noticed that my baby man has grown up a lot.

Studies always concluded that woman will be more matured than man at the early stage and I can conclude that as well because if wanna compare me and my man's maturity, my thinking will be more matured than his. Sometimes, he is just a kiddo to me, very cute kiddo. However, in this case, he has proven to me, he is no more just a kiddo but a man.

I felt so relieved after I read his smses. My tears rolled down my cheeks silently in the office. I have to wipe it off immediately without letting anyone notice. He has grown up a lot! I felt so happy for him because for once, he let his rational takes over his emotion. I am so proud of him. "Baby, you're so great!"

I am praying very very hard to God so he could answer my prayer. I really wish my prayer can be heard and answered. I am not fooling around, this time I am certain with what I want. Baby too is praying hard for me. We wish God will answer our prayer. Please!

New year is just around the corner.. I should be happy and I'm trying real hard to be. Wish all of you can pray for me too that miracle will happen then I certainly can be a happy bunny!! :D

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Back to the normal me! *ehem*.. hehe..

Missbunnie wishes all of you:-

HAPPY BUNNY YEAR!! May good luck, wealth and most importantly HEALTH will be with all of you always!!! Hope my miracle is on its way coming to me and also to all of you!

For those who loves gamble - Huatttt Arrrrhhh

For those who are single - Wish you can meet your Mr/Ms. Right in this year

For those who are not availble - May you and your loved one be happy always and if possible, maybe get married by this year?! hehe..

HUATTTTT ARRRRRHHHH!!!!

Love,

Missbunnie