Worst day ever!

I just experienced the worst day ever in year 2012! On the 13th day? Siao bo?!

Fucking hate the moment now because I really wished to rewind back time to ensure that all these would not happened.

As usual, this weekend is baby's turn to come over to my place. As usual he parked his car at the road side. As usual he came up to shower while I was busying with my spring cleaning! But the unusual part was normally I would not have dinner at home, but today I decided to eat home because I was tired with spring cleaning, lazy to think what to eat for dinner and wanted to accompany my parents for dinner. Who knows, this decision of mine could be the root to cause what happened next.

So after dinner, baby and I decided to go Jusco to shop for his new year stuff. So we left the house happily but we were not very happy after all when we saw his car! Baby was so shocked when he saw broken mirror on the passenger's seat! At first I tot he was just joking because he saw it first. But when I saw it with my own eyes that it's true that the mirror has broke and the lappie that he left in the car has gone, I wish I was in a dream and all these are not true.

As usual, I will the calm one and I called dad down. At the same time, I called Jess and some others to check it out whether do they have any close work shop that they can refer us to. Baby was so upset and don't know what to do as surely his mom is gonna scold him and I had no idea what can I do too to make him feel better.

It took awhile before I could get Jess. Thank God she said her friend's work shop can fix this but it has to wait until tomorrow. Sigh! So that's the hard part! Dad's friend too can help to fix it and his shop was just right opposite our house and dad suggested that baby man should just left his car there till next day morning. Who knows, suddenly baby made up his mind and said he wanted to go home because he felt that's the most right thing he should do.

Of course I am worried about him and wanted to follow him back home but he preferred not to so in the end, I went back home and praying really hard that his mom would not scold him & he would be home safe.

God answered my prayer when I received his message that he was home safe & his mom did not really scold him that bad because his dad brought him out to make a police report regarding the loss.

While he was busy at the police station, I did not have a good time here. In fact, I am really blaming myself for not following the usual plan. "What If" these 2 bloody words keep appearing in my mind. I wanted to find someone to spill the beans so badly but too bad, I do not know who to turn to. Thank God pH approached me after he saw my status in FB and I got to spill my beans.

pH kept telling me that it was not my bad and he comforted me saying that we should be grateful that no one was hurt in this incident. I understood but still, I just cant accept it! Because by right we would have a great weekend before the CNY! I do not have to spend the night alone without my baby and I shouldn't be here blogging on a Sunday morning! I really felt miserable & honestly I do not know what to do or what to say to him and so forth.

I had a very tough time to fall asleep! I had a very rough night and I knew these would be doubled for him.

Texted him early in the morning and I knew he read it already but no news from him yet. So what's next? Suddenly I would like to ask.. how would our future be?

I know it's just a mirror, a stupid thief and an unfortunate incident. How would it affect a relationship of 6 n a half year? I had no idea but somehow I just don't feel good now.